Stealing a bit of time at work, just because today is the first day this week that I've had any kind of down time. This week has been a nightmare of massive spike in volume and equipment failures left and right. Today is the first day this week that we haven't had some kind of equipment issue. Don't worry, there's still 3 hours left, plenty of time for something to break. It's been very stressful.
The new medication side effects aren't helping, either. Neither is my anxiety over my foot surgery on Monday.
Day 4 of Lexapro. Still have nausea, jittery, a little bit of lightheadedness, but it seems to be improving. I've had so much ginger this week that I can't imagine how I'm not sweating ginger crystals by now. But it really helps.
Foot surgery for the plantar fasciitis and heel spur happens on Monday. It's a minor surgery, but I'm really worried about how the recovery will go. I mean, it's my foot, it's not like I can do much if it gets fucked up. Kinda hard to move around without a proper weight bearing appendage.
Plus, I just am not sure how the whole "being home for 2 months" is going to impact things at home. Big D and I have been having a lot of communication issues and things aren't really that rosy right now. When I'm the one who does 98% of the emotional labor in the relationship and I'm having one of the worst depressive episodes I've EVER had, not surprising that things go a little haywire. I guess we'll just have to wait and see how things go. I'm still planning on going to IL to visit the crazy auntie for a few weeks, but even that depends on how my physical recovery is going.
So I'm just a queasy, dizzy ball of stress right now. Trying very hard to keep it contained and not lash out at people.
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